Hi,
This is my first post but have been reading stuff here for years.(sorry for the length of this)
Recent events have driven me to post, as I am after advice of people who may have, or know people who have been in this situation
OK, so I am an ordinary guy, working for an ordinary distribution firm, doing an ordinary days work. I was heading back towards the yard when BANG. The windscreen shatters, there are cars flying everywhere and all I can hear is the bang bang bang of more and more cars being hit my truck. I come to a stop and realise that I have been involved in a massive collision and I ended up being arrested for dangerous driving. Thankfully no one died, but all the same, I was charged with a very serious offence. All I could think of the time was that driver that killed the whole family, and I thought I must have killed 20 people, but that is just shock for you, every worst thought flashes through your mind and its almost impossible to think straight.
This was some months ago, and over the last little while I have been struggling to deal with what happened, and coming to terms with an accident that may or may not have been my fault I still remember nothing prior to the accident, and was not driving tired, and i was well within tacho rules had a well maintained truck and so on, all the same for some reason i didnt slow down when I saw a queue.
After getting good legal advice(fortunately paid for by work) and reviewing the statements, it seems I am stuffed. I am soon likely to find my self facing a prison term of up to year, so this puts me in a curious position. I have since lost the energy to be angry, angry at the system, angry at myself and am now just resigned to the fact my life seems to be in tatters.
So, right now, all I can see in front of me is prison slamming shut and I can see no way forwards with life. I have no intention of returning to life on the road,(I did go back to work after the accident, but stress made me make some bad decisions and my attitude got me sacked). How do I go about looking past what is happening, and sort out picking my life up, not sure how i could cope with going to prison for any length of time, I’m not exactly a chav smack addict so I dont have much in common with your average prisoner.
A final point, having an accident like this is perhaps the worst thing that can happen to professional driver. For simple getting up and going to work, I now face having no job, no money, and no freedom. Seeing things from this side has really opened my eyes, never again will I be in the “lock em up and through the key” brigade unless i know every fact. This can happen to any of us, and was very fortunate no one died, or else I would be in even worse trouble.
^^Discuss^^
Seriously, if anyone has suitable advice to give, I am not after sympathy or absolution, or asking to be let off for something I may have caused, just want help seeing that there may be something on the other side of all this, cause if there is i can’t see it.
I might keep you updated with what happens if your interested, but obviously, i cant state specifics, thanks for reading.